A couple of years ago I had this powerful crush on this guy I saw regularly. He was involved with someone and eventually got married, etc. I kept away and made it a point not to cross his path. I had strong feelings for quite a while and I felt very bad to have felt the way I did (since I couldn’t have him). Today he is right in front of me and available and I don’t want him. I can’t believe how I feel. I know I can get him if I try, but these feelings I had just disappeared, as if it never happened? I just can’t understand this heart of ours. Romantic love must be an illusion then, isn’t it? It’s not real, is it? And how would one know if there’s potential for something real. Is it just that one must take the risk and try and then if it turns to love, then great? Or is it that when I’m ready for a relationship, then everything will fall in place? Is it finding the compatible person or is it just a right time? Or maybe both? Or is it me that I fear commitment so I just fall for unavailable men or just in my mind where it’s safe not to get hurt? It’s really confusing me this ‘human heart’? Does anyone here have any explanation? Is anyone here is as confused as I am?